You wouldn’t know it by reading my blog, but I have multiple personalities. My blogging, whether for Moonfrye or Mommyish or those places in between, all revolves around motherhood. I share the highs, the lows, the small victories and the insecurities. Taken all together it really displays the whole picture of me as a mother.
My fiction writing is a whole different ballgame. On one hand, I’m chic lit. I imagine myself writing a story about modern life and the challenges we face in finding love and family and success. The protagonist is a smart urban woman in the vein of books written by fellow former lawyers Emily Giffin or Aidan Donnelley Rawley. Not only do I read those stories, I’ve lived them. Between my failed relationships, my career achievements and flubs, and my rampant insecurities hidden behind my brash partying ways, I have enough material to write ten books.
On the other hand, I have spent hundreds of hours and written thousands of words on paranormal young adult stories. As Mrs. Taylor, my HS Freshman English teacher, could attest, I have been obsessed with magic and demons and darkness since I was a teen. They didn’t have the plethora of options in the YA department back then so I devoured Dean Koontz novels like my soul depended on it. I stopped reading those books more than a decade ago, but now that I am writing more seriously, I once again find myself drawn to young girls navigating unusual and complicated worlds.
I hate to make yet another parallel between me and Jennifer Garner (that’s not true, I relish the opportunity no matter how far-fetched) but am I the real life 13 Going On 30? Like I went to bed a 13-year-old and woke up the next day in a world where I was supposed to be an adult, the stories I tell are trapped between two very different worlds these ages represent. How do I reconcile this? Do I have to choose one or the other?
Do you have this problem? When you aren’t writing about being a parent, what kinds of stories are you compelled to tell? If you aren’t a writer, do you have interests that appear out of whack (like squash and bingo, or rifle-shooting and kitty collecting)? Or am I the only one???